Writing by Bree on Sunday, 13 of July , 2008 at 8:12 pm
Well today my grandma lost her battle to cancer. I really didn’t know her as she lived a long way from us and she was never really a grandma she was an alcholic that lived to drink unfortunatly even in these last years when she wasn’t really drinking she was so messed up from years of drinking she really wasn’t well.
My mum is understandably very upset. This is the poem that I have contributed to the funeral I wont be able to go as it is a long way from us.
Here it is:
Grandma’s Touch of Life
© Jenn E. Welsh
I hear people speak her name and sometimes when I hear it I feel quite ashamed
Not of you but of me because I can’t remember her happily
I never knew her and people don’t say what kind of things she did each day
People don’t talk to me about such
I think maybe it hurts too much
It hurts me more than most people know
And this is my way of trying to show
Show just how much I need to see
Just exactly how she would have acted towards me
So to everyone who reads this I just want to say
Please tell about my grandma someday
And I just want to tell you what I’ve been missing out on everyday
I bet she’s very sorry for not being here to watch me grow
But I’m the one who is sorry because she’s not here to know
I can’t talk to her, although I’ve got plenty to say
I can’t walk to her because she lives too far away
We can’t share secrets or teach me how to make a rug
She can’t hold me tight when I am in need of a hug
She can’t wipe away the tears that often fill my eyes
I wouldn’t even know her without a disguise
She can’t take the time because she’s got none left
She can’t yell at me when I wine because she can’t take a breath
She can’t hear me sing my little tune of sorrow
She can’t give me hope for a brighter tomorrow
But some how if I knew just who she was
Maybe I could feel the type of my grandmother’s love
Some how I feel you probably knew her well
So sometime can you share what of her you have of her too tell?
Some of us grandkids wonder but never dare to say
Because it might bring back memories of her that still hurt to this day
I just wish I had thoughts that even hurt so much
I just wanna try to feel the feel of her loving touch
So when your not busy or in a mad rush
And you think about your mother, please also think of us.
Grandma’s Touch of Life by Jenn E. Welsh from http://www.FamilyFriendPoems.com
Category: Chit Chat
Writing by Bree on Sunday, 13 of July , 2008 at 8:06 pm
This is my bump at 25 weeks pregnant. Very cool getting bigger everyday.
Category: Chit Chat
Writing by Bree on Wednesday, 9 of July , 2008 at 4:14 pm
Well we have been really busy.
Jason has a new job as a Taxi Driver making great money and learning heaps. You know I can actually now trust him to know the direction of things in our local area amazing. He is doing so well and I am so proud of him. He actually has been talking to a guy about a part time job on his two days off as a cook so we will see how that goes. I am so proud of him and totally respect how he handles himself with this job. Honestly it is very full on long hours but he is handling it so well.
James is now 5yrs. I shouldn’t say trial but very full on. Totally testing boundaries and making me feel like a bad parent 90% of the time lately but I seem to be making head way with him. It is just hard when I am trying to do a million things and he is pushing the boundaries. But he is learning loads and loads of stuff at this point and the more I challenge him with school work he seems to calm down. Boredom is probably part of the issue. But he is growing and loves swimming and eating. 
Letise is now 4 yrs and is doing really well. She is very cute with Sasha just loves her actually. Sam and her fight a bit and James and her fight a lot. But they all play so well together. She loves her barbies and her dolls and is totally cute as she tells her stories with her dolls and ponies. A real live girl.
Sam is now 2yrs and wakes at 3.30am to say hi and have a cuddle. I dont really know how to break that cycle but I am now not letting him fall asleep with me in the bed. I am giving him a cuddle and sending him on his way. Works some mornings and not others. He is so full of energy I mean he can run all day and than some. so by 5am he has woken up all the kids unfortunately but the last few mornings I have been all over him to stay in bed and be queit and it seems to be working. We will see. He has a great sense of humor.
Sasha is now 9 months and so damn cute. She is crawling everywhere and standing up on furniture and walking along it so not too long before she will be walking. I am amazed at how quick she is growing. Very determined little thing to get her own way. Smiles and laughs at just about anything and she is beautiful. Loves her dad heaps and says dad dad all the time I have had a couple of mums but she smiles when I ask her to say it and says dad. Cheeky.
The unborn bubs I am now 6 months along of 24.5 weeks. Is going really well. I totally forget I am pregnant half the time because bubs just does it thing and this pregnancy I haven’t had to go on the high risk register as I have no pains and it has been straight forward. I am so happy. The 20 weeks scan was fantastic no issues baby was livly and constantly moving and kicking. My placenta is accross the front so I cant actually feel a lot of kicks but bubs seems to be getting stronger because I feeling more.
Me last but not least. I am doing well. Things seem to be working out well. I am trying to get more organized and not get so overwhelmed. I do well I think but at times I think I am failing. I suppose parenting is working things out slowly but surly.
Anyway thanks to all those that are commenting I love it. Sorry been so long I will get some more stuff on here soon.
Category: Pregnancy, Parenting, Chit Chat
